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So sorry, I have been a bad blog owner lately...but we have just been taking time to bond and be a family. We have been getting back on a decent type schedule which has been nice. I have a free moment so I decided to update the blog world.

First off...the trip to Korea (wow that seems like forever ago)

Was wonderful. Ezra did great!! He didn't fuss on the plane, he is such a trooper. I guess it helps that his Mommy and Daddy have taken him all over the world in his little short life. Ezra is not one to be center stage, or like a lot of stranger attention, but he did great, when approached by people. I was terrified he would scream or cry but he seemed to try really hard to appreciate people trying to talk with him. He did okay meeting with his foster mom, but it was his nap time and he was therefore a little cranky, but in the end, gave a hug and kiss, which I think made up for it. We ended up finding lactose free milk at the grocery, which was very cool and kept my milk guy very happy. Ezra was not on the other hand very interested in Lincoln. He met Lincoln with us the second meeting. He was very "yippy" as I like to call it, very needy, and a little hyper sensitive to the whole situation. Needless to say, it was a very stressful meeting for Ezra, but again in the end, gave Lincoln a big kiss and some love. Over all I am so happy that we took Ezra with us for so many different reasons. It was great for him to see Korea, even though I am not quite sure he "got it". I was so proud to be there with him and so proud to be his Mommy!! I was so happy to see the amazing people of Korea, embraced him so. It was really a full circle moment for all of us I believe. Being there with him, rocking the babies, receiving Lincoln, all being in the airport together to fly home, being stuck on a plane to bond, was all great. I had a lot of fear taking Ezra to Korea, and for it to be his 3rd birthday was very emotional. But I kept saying to myself, that if we all went, I could never regret not going, and that is so true. The trip was very hard, I will not lie. We were all exhausted, all a little touchy, Ezra vomited the first morning we arrived and actually we got the stomach flu the first night we were home. It was cold, did I mention that it was cold. But overall, I am so happy that we were there as a family. I think we all did a great job and it was so worth it!! I would do it again. Now, if we were to ever go back again, both boys would have to be older. Managing the streets and the subway, with one toddler was plenty!!

Meeting with Lincoln the first time was an absolute dream of course. He was very comfortable with seeing us and came to me right away. Our fist meeting the social workers were late, so we saw him in the hallway with the foster mom. She gave him to me and let me feed him his bottle. He was very happy and stroked my face...oooo la la...Mommy heaven. Lincoln loved loved loved his foster Mommy and she loved him. He would just melt into her, ooh so cute. He very happy, but was also sick, poor thing. He had a terrible rash on his neck, he was covered in eczema, and had a horrible cough and cold with fever and tummy issue. But he smiled the whole time!! Poor thing. He was better the day we left and Eastern was terrific. They gave us all of his medicine and instructions for the plane ride home and he was feeling so much better, that we didn't need any of it. Since we have been home he is feeling much better. His eczema, with the help of a RX, is great!! He has no fever and the rash on his neck is no more. He still has a little bit of cough and congestion, but other than that seems good.

Lincoln is the sweetest little thing!! He love, loves, loves to be cuddled. He is so snuggly. He smiles constantly and is very happy to explore. He loves Ezra to pieces and literally wants to eat him up. Lincoln is doing great! The first 3 nights at home were rough, very rough. He grieved very hard and was so so sad, poor guy. But since then he seems to be doing great. He is making good eye contact, is happy to see us, and he is sleeping pretty good at night as long as he has a bottle in his mouth on top of Mommy or Daddy's chest. But hey, I will take it!! I will gladly feed you all night long on my chest, if we can all sleep. We will worry about bad habits later..haha. He is not really napping, and fight the naps big time. But cat naps a little so that is good.
He is still sleeping in our room, mostly in our bed, sometimes in the pack and play or on Mommy's chest on the couch. He is transiting to our formula okay. We just recently started doing this. We loaded up on Korean formula while in Korea, because I wanted to give him some time to adjust before switching his milk. Ezra had such a hard time with this, but Lincoln seems to be doing okay with it.

Ezra is trying really hard to like being a big brother!! We are just taking it slow....Ezra too had a hard time the first few days home and did not like the idea that, "wonk'n, aka..Lincoln" was staying. He even tried to pawn him off on his Auntie Lynne...hahah!! But after a few melt downs, some cuddle time with Mommy and Daddy and some co-sleeping, Ezra is giving it his all as a new big brother. He is trying to help more and even wants to pick him up. He has been tickling him and saying sweet things to him. They are starting to actually play a little and giggle together which is just the most unbelievable feeling in the world I tell you. Most days even though I am totally exhausted I am also very filled!

I am so proud to have both my boys under the the same roof and I am so very blessed. I can't even begin to type what it means to be the Mother to such wonderful little people...I am so so thankful!! I am so in love with all my boys..

Okay enough sap...

So some pictures...